NEW YEAR, SAME ME
It’s usually at this time of year that there’s an influx of ‘New Year, New Me’ blog posts, newsletters and Instagram captions flying around but this year I don’t fancy finding a new me, I’m happy as I am.
I have such a different attitude to work than I used to. Between 2014 and 2016 I was all about getting more and doing more. Growing my stats, growing the amount of jobs I did, increasing the amount of content I made and for a while it was exciting and I was thriving, full of motivation. 2016 was completely different for me and I don’t know what changed other than that I grew up and started to prioritise what really matters in life. I realised that although I am so lucky to have a job that I’m so passionate about, life isn’t about just work and that my priority over anything else is happiness. When the negative parts of my job started to outshine the positive I knew I had to take a step back, have a bit of reality check and find a way to be happy in my job. I’d rather have smaller numbers, less content and possibly miss out on press opportunities if that means me a) having a more loyal, positive audience and b) being happier in myself and my work/life balance. This year I want to continue to take that attitude; I want to be more flexible and spontaneous with my content, take it less seriously (whilst still being professional of course) and always remember why I started in the first place and the reasons I love my job so much. I refuse to get caught up in the online bubble as it really is a bubble. My ‘irl’ friends don’t know or care about what’s going on on Twitter or in the YouTube comments of someone’s video so when something kicks off or a flurry of negative comments come my way, I just remind myself of the bubble we live in and how irrelevant it really is in the grand scheme of things. Here’s to another year of just being me and setting my own rules!
I can’t really be bothered for New Year’s resolutions this year if I’m honest. I feel like when you’re younger setting goals like ‘exercise more’ or ‘learn how to paint’ are somewhat achievable and fun to tick off a list. But for me, the things I want to achieve in 2018 are so big and daunting, I don’t want to put that pressure on myself. The list of big things I want to do this year is huge including publishing my book (which I know will happen so I can tick that) and doing a house renovation, so I’d rather just take it a step at a time instead of overwhelming myself with things to achieve. Being a grown up means always having a list of to-do’s and possibly never really feeling satisfied so I’m not looking too far ahead, let’s just figure what to do in January for now. I’ve achieved so much in the last 10 years and to be starting the new year as a married 30-year-old with a great career and a proper grown up house is mad. Life seems to go so fast so this year I want to always remember to live in the moment, not think too far ahead, appreciate what I have, spend time with the people that matter and 100% be myself at all times, even if that means loosing subscribers (because who cares if the people who don’t like you choose not to watch your videos?).
Here’s the a new year and the same old me because why constantly try to change something when instead you can just learn to accept yourself for who you are and just enjoy life.